Not On The Surface

Take Me As I Am Or Nothing At All
If You Know Me Then Show Me
Not Pretending Anymore
I Will Not Smile In Your Face
Just To Appease Your Conscience

You See Me
I See You
That's All It Should Be
I'm Not Living On The Surface 
With You Anymore
To Keep You Liking Me

Today is New
Tomorrow is Through
 Seeing What I Mean To Me Now
You Say We Are Friends
Around Your Friends 
It Appears We Are Only Pretend
This I Comprehend 
We Were Never Friends 

Appeared When I Least Expected 
Had Me Believe You Were True Blue
For Awhile I Thought I Knew You
Looks Like You Chose A Side
Sadly, I knew When We First Met
How Did I Let You Get Close To Me
No matter Ex-Friend
Go, Ahead! 

There Are other Focuses Instead 
I'm Looking To My Future With Pride
Goodbye!

It was a Good Run
We are on Different Paths
We're Done
No Hard Feelings 
It Was Good While It Lasted 
Sometimes Smiling & Laughing
A Small Part Will Miss It
After What We Went Through
I'll Never Go Back
Let's Not Pretend
You Were Not Part of That

Foolish of Me To Believe
You Would Ever 
Go To Bat For Me
In Front of Their Faces
To Defend Me 
For My Good Character

The Minute I Am Free 
To Express All That I See
You Turn Your Back on Me
Get Into Your Feelings 
Like It's An Attack On You

Silent And Cold 
You Act Different
Seeing A New Side of You
That I Never Knew 
Protecting These Heifers
Right Then You Turned 
Your Back On Me
Then I Knew 
We Were Through

For Me To Be Truly Me  
Take Me As I Am Or Nothing At All
If You Know Me Then Show Me
Not Pretending Anymore
I Will Not Smile In Your Face
Just To Appease Your Conscience

You See Me
I See You
That's All It Should Be
I'm Not Living On The Surface 
With You Anymore
To Keep You Liking Me

It's Okay.
I'm Out of The Picture
Don't Expect Me 
To Ever Miss It.
Worked Together & That's It
Spent Time Running Around
Biting My Tongue
Customer Purchases Were Rung
All These B**ches Tried To 
Shun Me For Speaking Up
Discriminating Against Me
Secretly Wanting Me To Fail

The 
Only
 Black 
Female

Tried My Best To Steer Clear 
Always Trying To Pry
Into My Personal Affairs 
I Had To Stand Up 
Declaring My Business
Is Not For Discussion
Why You Hags Believe
I Come From Nothing?
 Speak Well & Dress Well
I Am About Something

A 
Young 
Black 
Female

Taking each others' side
I'm Speaking Out Against One
All of you ganging up on me
My complaints defeated 
Thinking you won

Stimulating Intelligence
Intellectual Verbose
Hateful Heifers Take Notes 
Heinous Group
Trifling White Female Pricks
Laughing At Them Now
All of Them Silly Tricks 
Doing Their Best To Break Me Down
To Emotionally Hurt Me

Clearly I See Now 
What I Mean To Me
Not The Same
Things Are Different Now.
Life is Moving On.

I'm Waking Up To A New Reality
With The Morning Dawn
Saying Farewell To You Now
You Can't Play Me Like A Pawn 
It's The Right Thing To Do

Don't Give A D8mn 
About Them Heifers Neither
Those B**ches You Hold Dear
Let Me Make One Thing Very Clear
You Are A Season of My Life
Cutting You Away like a Knife
Leaving All Behind
With All My Might

No More Being 
What Others Want Me To Be
I'm Living & Doing
What Is Right For Me.

For Me To Be Truly Me  
Take Me As I Am Or Nothing At All
If You Know Me Then Show Me
Not Pretending Anymore
I Will Not Smile In Your Face
Just To Appease Your Conscience
You See Me
I See You
That's All It Should Be
I'm Not Living On The Surface 
With You Anymore
To Keep You Liking Me