Mix of Too Many

Mix of Too Many Relations

In One.

Mix of All relationships

In One.

Speaking To Me 

With No one else To speak To.

After Responding I'm Angered & Through!

Remembering that it is only me and you.

You have no one else To speak To!

Putting all into one.

Without me You would have no one!

We don't like each other 

With no one else to share your stories.

Must I listen All The Time of long ago?

Mentions of your time with your brother?!!?

Speaking of him like there is no other.

Expecting me to know facts

Like a Psychic

Only You hold close to your chest.

Taking a decent memory 

Reflecting on negative.

"Me" Mess!

By The Time I've shared A Current Story of my own.

You've made it yours and only yours alone.

You've shown your self-centered memories

When I try to understand Making Sense

Nasty - Cold - Brute

Demeaning enemy you become!

It is the hatred and Pain in your spirit.

You hold onto and protect.

I Hold Myself Together. 

From the meanness you project!

Not a child anymore.

I - no longer let it hit so deep.

Talking to you releases A Meanness in Me. 

In return

I wrongfully to others project!

You're such a Mess!

Nasty snake You are!

Controlling my Freedom.

If I had It.

I would Travel far away and Never Come Back.

Let you Recant your old personal memories

Holding so close to your chest.

I Know You will never Change

I Know You will never Get Over Yourself

The Time has come for me to save Myself.

Tired of Your hate

Attacking me for No Reason

I'm Hoping To Be Gone 

In The Coming Season! 

emotion-less

I may appear a bit emotionless
It's how I am to face the world
From baggage that became my mess
Appearing from the day that I was born
My mind always taking flight like a kite
Soaring through the boundless skies 
If I woke up and asked myself, why?
Would my existence matter if I die?

The reality still came at me strong 
For any little thing I did was wrong 
Pouring of emotions so very raw
Not abiding by The House's Law 
The control held me to the last straw
From everything I did and clearly saw

If I was never this way...
Would I still be here today?
No, my soul would've gone away
There's no reason for me to stay.

The Light. It Has Always Been The Light.
His Light Planted In Me To Shine Bright.
For No Reason My Joy Spills over in Delight.
Where Does It Come From? It Saved My Life!

It's no longer needed in my life today
I have many reasons to live and stay
Praying has kept my demons at bay 
Seeking me out to destroy me everyday

I may appear a bit emotionless.
But there's content in me nonetheless.
You must be close to me to understand this.
I would be dead instead with nothing to miss.

This Mighty Soul By God's Grace is resilient
Given me Escapes into the Depths of Contentment
A Love of Life, Wonder, and All Things Beautiful 
I've never before in my life Felt this Full
Coming Out of the Darkness Fully Spiritual
My Future is Bright and I can't Wait To Take Flight
In The Boundless Sky Light Like A Boundless Kite.

No More

No More

I Can't Do This Anymore

Providing You With More

I'm All Used Up

Tired Out Of My Mind

Tired of Giving - Giving To You.

All You Want is More, More, More.

There's Nothing Left For Me To Give.

Catering To You - For Everything You Want.

You Have Drained Me Dry.

My Face In My Hands - Ready To Cry.

Burst Into Tears. And For Why?

Your Selfishness And Your Pride.

I'm Depressed And Scared.

I Know You Don't Care.

So I Bottle It Deep Inside.

It's Killing Me Inside.

You Never Loved Me - or Cared.

 Taking All of My Time.

The Most Precious Thing That Is Mine.

My Life And Generosity To Give.

Is The Reason That I Live.

You Divided Up My Life.

Which Way To Go - I Was Afraid

If I Chose You Not This Time

Would You Turn On Me? Becoming Angry.

And Take It Out On Me?

The Days Go By

You Reduce My Smile To Nothing

Always Something To Want.

I Don't Want To Care Anymore.

Stop Making Me Give You More!

I Don't Want To Give You More...

You Can't See or Maybe You Do

Knowing What You're Doing To Me.

I'm Sick and Tired of Being Used By You

If I Keep Doing This, Time Keeps Slipping

With My Own Life, I Am Missing.

Taking Every Part of Me til I'm Through.

Knowing You Are That Cruel.

You Don't Deserve Anymore From Me.

Not Answering Your Calls No More.

No More Running To Your Side Anymore.

Not Laying Down My Life Anymore.

I've Come To Realize You Can't Give Me More.

I Can't Do This Anymore

Providing You With More

I'm All Used Up

Tired Out Of My Mind

Tired of Giving - Giving To You.

All You Want is More, More, More.

There's Nothing Left For Me To Give.

Catering To You - For Everything You Want.

You Have Drained Me Dry.

My Face In My Hands - Ready To Cry.

Burst Into Tears. And For Why?

Your Selfishness And Your Pride.

I'm Depressed And Scared.

I Know You Don't Care.

So I Bottle It Deep Inside.

It's Killing Me Inside.

You Never Loved Me - or Cared.

 Taking All of My Time.

The Most Precious Thing That Is Mine.

My Life And Generosity To Give.

Is The Reason That I Live.