Love Addiction.

I Can't Be In Love Today
Wondering if Everything Will Be Ok...
Will These Feelings Slip And Fall Away...
I Can't Be In Love This Day...
Mirroring This Angry Beast 
I'm Just In A Mood.
Want To Throw Things and Break Them
Want To Yell And Throw A Damn Fit
Nothing Is Going Right. I Just Want To Cry.
Patience Is Too Fucking Hard...It's Too Hard.
Damn Needy And Clingy I've Been Told
Thru Years Not Having Someone To Hold
Do You Know How To Make It This Long?
No You Don't! You Will Never Know My Pain.
Struggle and Suppression Made Me Insane.
Emotional Pain...Deeper Than Physical Pain.
Touch. Kiss. Make Me Feel Like I Am Rich.
Is It Just Lust? Or The Need Of A Loving Touch...
Just Love Me...I Say, LOVE ME. I Don't Care How Demanding.
Aggressive. Bossy. Demanding. And Wanting...

Yes I Am! 
Claim ME, Snatch ME Up, And Say I Am YOURS! 
I Need You To MAKE ME Yours...
My Anger Melts To Sadness...Tears Needing To Fall.
Why??? WHY You Fucking Bastard Do You Stall?!!?
I'm Waiting For You To Realize Love Has Been Here.
It is IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE, AFTER ALL! 
AFTER ALL...Happily Ever After...Am I Kidding MY Self???
Say My Name! Say My Name! Say My Name!
All The Time I'm Saying YOUR Name...YOUR Name...
When will BOTH our names be the Damn Same!!!!
Time...Time...I Hate Fucking Time! Oh God..why is it YOUR Time!
Can't You See What I've Been Going Through Lately.
Fawning..Stupidly...DayDreaming....Foolishly...Waking Up.
No, Today is NOT A LOVING DAY....

This Beautiful Sunny Sunday
Can I Not Feel The Sun Warm On My Body. My Face...And Feel
Your Loving Kiss..?!!? Close My Eyes Drunk. 

Stop Torturing Me...

Golden Sunlight Mixed with Sun rays And your lips. Yes. Sweet Joyfulness.

These Stupid Hearts...
These Love-sick..Romantic Displays of Waste. 

They Are My Heart.
Not Given Lightly. It Is My HEART! 

I'm OPENING To Be Hurt, Why?
AGAIN...AGAIN...AGAIN...

I Know You're The ONE, But why You Too?
Don't Let me Believe I'm Being A Fool! 

Am I or Is This A Godly Test??
If I Want You Then I Must Experience This Emotional Fucking Mess!
SAY MY NAME....TALK TO ME...SHOW ME YOU ARE REAL! 

ARE YOU?
ARE YOU THERE? DO YOU SEE ME? ARE YOU HIDING? 

WHAT ARE YOU FIGHTING? FUCK THE ANXIETY. 

IT IS ALL LIES. 
YOUR MIND IS LYING!
I FEEL Manic...I'm a Beast...An Animal...Fire Burning Furiously...
I AM CONTROLLING...I hate it...I AM CONTROLLING THIS...and I'm 
Losing it...I AM LOSING IT....MY GOD...Please. 
You Are my Soul. 
I Can't Lose You. 
I LOVE YOU. I love you.. I Love You..I Love You...I am Loving You...I am In Love with You...
Only You...Just You..Yes YOU. Why Can't You See It Too...We were Broken in 2.
A LOVE ADDICTION. Something I need. Just Give Me A Lil. 
Just A Lil. 
A lil bit of Love is All I Need. 

Stop Being Scared It's Coming From Me.