Torture With Control

Robbed me of my 20's

The Best Time of My Life

Put down every mistake

That I make

Always Tired of Entertaining

Your Insane

Your Fears Come From You

No one else

Everyday Fears Ruining My Path

To Peace Continuously

Truly not endearing

My mind with body 

continuously spinning

Looking to the closest around you

To Blame

Your Fears 

Unwillingness To Thrive

A shame

I've watched you over and over

Make the Same Mistakes

Never Learning

I've been Waiting for Your Best

Every Challenge putting us Both

To The Test

The Pain

The Hurt

The Suffering

The Torture

I've been Enduring!

To no Safety

Do I ever Feel! 

Dreams of the Possibilities

Far in Sight

I was Hopeful

Expecting Too Much

Looking Back Now

Would I Have Known

My Hope would be dust.

My Journey out of this Purgatory

Is A Must!

I Didn't Realize how Bad it was 

Until it Arrived

From what I saw on the Outside

Now I am just trying to Survive

From the Moment of Hope

As A Year Passed

I Tried To Survive

My Spirit at 35 

I Am Now Trying 

To Revive 

  

Breaking Free - You're Hurting Me

You're so cold-hearted

Left me broken-hearted

Don't know where we started 

Just get out my way

Baby I need space

You can't make me stay

Just cuz we came 

A very long way

Now I want to be gone

Leave Me Alone

Need to be on my own

Before I lost myself

Who are You to me?

Just Misery

Need to say Goodbye

I'm bout to just cry

Leave Me Alone

It's Time For Me

To Be Gone

I'm Breaking Free

You're Hurting Me

Need to be on my own

So This is Goodbye

Trapped - Torn - Stuck

Scared of being alone.

Scared of leaving home.

Scared of being alone.

I have nowhere else to go.

I made the choice to stay.

Days and nights I had to pray.

I made the choice to say,

One day everything will change.

In prayer I always said,

Why do this to me?

Why do I deserve this?

What did I miss?

Love, support, affection

Understanding, Trust

RESPECT.

Crying myself to sleep.

Weep. Weep. Waking.

My conditions very deep.

Without hope and a way out.

My soul was screaming

My voice could not shout.

You gave me nothing to believe in.

Lifting you up as you put me down.

Night Magic

What will we do for a Fun Time?

The World Brings Us Together 

INFINITE 

Stars Above 

What A Beautiful Sight 

TWINKLING

I'm Filled with Such Delight

Where are we.

Lost in this Fine Night

Boundless Thoughts And Dreams

FINITE 

This is what makes a FUN NIGHT

Amazing, Fun, Magical

Dare to say it is Natural.

Waves of War & Airs of Turbulence

Going through the waves

Rocky Waters

Battleships in the sea

Ready To Fire

The Waves are Troubled

Troubled waters below.

The ships are closing in

That feeling creeping in again.

Trapped

nowhere to go.

can't run. can't hide. nowhere to get away.

1 shot to end The Waters.

To be still once again.

Your shot or Mine?

1 has to choose.

1 Ends It All.

once its done.

The skies are Clear 

The sun is Bright

Until the next wave of War.

Here We Go Again

There is Trouble in the Air.

Fighter jets zip and zoom by.

Can't see them.

Moving Too Fast.

1 shot is All it takes.

To clear the Skies once again.

Who shoots first?

This Time All at once.

No escaping these Airs of Turbulence.

Whoever hits the Water first will emerse in the waves of war.

Neither sky nor Air can keep You sayfe from it.

The War You Bring to the Space We Reside.

No matter where I Go 

or What I must Do.

The War Continuously Rages 

even when it's Clear

Underneath the surface the volcano 

Has yet to erupt.

The Fire still blazes

Only I know.

When the Battle is set to begin.

I get that Feeling Again.

Creeping up on me.

Ready to Explode.

But I'm exhausted

tired 

And Beaten Down From Your Waves of War 

And Your Airs of Turbulence.

Nothing changes.

There is WAR all around

If it All stops in 1 moment  

It could Bring the Fear

of the Deafening Sound.

But not me

It is the peace that I seek. 

Through the Years of time passed.

I felt I was weak

Not Anymore

For now I've learned the Truth

From these Personal Chains

I will no longer be Bound.

To erase these memories 

Is to erase myself

So I look to the future

with what I've been dealt

Leaving behind Your War

I am Free 

Flying Among The Birds 

In the Clouds 

Floating Aimlessly 

In Clear Blue 

Swimming Among the fish

In the open seas.  

Captured In A Jar

 The Talent is A Prize
Ask Anyone Who Wants It
To Keep on the shelf
The smiles of Disguise
Hide the Greed of Dollar signs
Notes of Your Beauty
Captured In A Jar
If they could They would
Push You Far Away
You're Part of the Machine
Do You know what that means?
They Can Discard You Anytime
Just A number for the Day
Making sure You work hard to Play
Giving Your Time To Play
Making sure you'll stay
Your gifts Should not Be Bottled.
Sitting on the shelf.

Unfortunately

You left me so Scared
I Did not Come Prepared
For The Way I lost myself
I'm Back where I started
Out of Love's Trance
I'm still remembering
When we used To Dance
All Night Long
A never ending love song
I never ever thought to let you go
Now there's so many things I know
We were never meant to be
I Can let this end Proudly
Our words are enough
It's time to Pack our stuff
This Love Affair is Done
Unfortunately

Our Own Bliss

Lying on your bed

Listening to All the Words You've Said
You Made Love to me with Your Voice
Then again with Your Words 
It surrounds me with warmth
The most Tender & Beautiful Bliss
That feels Physical 
What we consummate in the Physical
Only continues in the Mental
Lying still...still
You gave my mind and body so much to feel.
Music softly in the background 
Your voice creates the most Beautiful Sounds
I can't believe I am here so very still
Feeling this real
It is like a Dream and it seems it will never end
On my stomach I lay watching you play
Your fingers across the keys on my body I need.
This Physical Bliss every second I miss
Everywhere I still feel your kiss
From my head to my toes no more lonely woes
We both experienced before now
All I hear is the sound of your music in the background
I can't stand up
My feet will never feel the ground
I just want to lay, just lay, to stay in this Physical Bliss
Every second I miss with my mind remembering your kiss
All over my body
Your closest four legged friend comes in 
Laying across my back all 3 of us are a pack 
And it feels so right looking at your majesty with the morning light
I can't move. I don't want to. There is nothing I want to do.
But listen to the Music & the sound you make that soothes.
The way of love is the softness of a dove.
Your white with my night is the Light of my Life
As I lay here living here in this Mental & Physical Bliss.
If I try to leave I know you will need me again.
We cannot end this insatiable sin
Over and over again we continuously win
Our minds and souls are always in
I can't comprehend how I'm still here.
I stand up to leave with your eyes all over me
I feel your stare seeing me completely bare 
And nothing compares.
Your eyes make love to me all over again
I have to walk away and you make me stay
If I may, is it wrong to stay another day and watch you play
Nothing seems Better.
You play your music in the background like a love letter.
Written only to me.
I see where I'm supposed to be
Your body laying next to me, in a dream, for eternity.
This Physical feels Spiritual making love to my mental.
Your voice so deep it instantly puts me to sleep.
In my dreams I meet Him and tells me to stay it's no sin.
You are to be with him.
Just stay and just lay and listen to him play.
There is no better feeling than this.
Rushing back to the world you will surely miss
Whose kiss can be so sincere.
The way he looks at you and calls you dear
He just wants me near and I'm in love with him
We must pray that we can stay in these moments Forever 
If in a different way, alright, I will accept any way.
To just stay here with you.
I pray and pray and wantonly pray. 
All the senses you display.
Sight, Sound, Touch, & Taste
Sweet Smells from candles, the visuals I can Taste.
My lips against your skin.
Your lips.
On the table herbal tea you provide I sip.
And sip listening to you play your music 
It just makes me slip again to our physical bliss.
Every second I miss.
Everywhere I still feel your kiss.
From my head to my toes, no more lonely woes
We both experienced before now.
You have me forever floating on a cloud.
The noise outside is loud but not here and now
In this Mental Bliss as you equally give me 
Physical Bliss.