Bleeding

BLEEDING

Eyes bleed
Ever so helpless it seems
Wake me up from this chaotic dream
S
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Released
Whispers to the dark
Trying to light a spark
T
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As I Flat line
A sign of the end of times
I can do nothing but sigh
D
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On this lonely night
Buried in this fright
Searching but cant find the light....

 

 

My Choice

~ My Choice~

Whispers.......in the name of tears

Nights crying...trying to conquer my fears

Hearts weakened....in the name of love

Sullied......like that of a black dove

Captured......Within the blink of an eye

No retreating this prison

He screams for me to come to him

I shout at the top of my lungs

Release me

But he never hears me 

The noise drowns

It was your choice

You chose his way

You chose to stay

Clouds darken......a soul gone astray

Lost and forlorn..... A heart turned gray

Shallow breath..... As I beg for death

No retreating this prison

He screams for me to come to him

I whimper

as I crawl into the fetal position

I'm sorry

I didn't mean to fall

But he never hears me

The noise drowns

It was my choice

I chose his way

I chose to stay

The Valley

Tho I walked through the valley
I smiled
No longer exiled
For I am in my garden of Eden
Yes I was born a heathen
But I turned my life around
And I proudly wear this crown
A queen maybe not
But royalty best believe
Why cause I achieved
The wealth of loving myself
Death hung at my feet
But I dared to not give up
And too reach for my dreams
The stars have lit my way
Through that valley today
My lows no longer touch the ground
And my highs are closer then the sky
I've got my eye on the prize
Glad I didn't believe the lies
As my flesh becomes new
My verses grew
To a state
For I will never break
Too much at stake
Throw that negativity into the lake
Let the fire burn
As the rose blooms
On snow covered ponds
Summer sings that song
The kiss of the morning dew
As I forgive myself
And life starts anew...

There Were Signs

There were signs
From the beginning
I knew I wasn't going to be winning
To him always sinning
Didn't grow up that way
I still ask my self
WHY did I stay?
Guilt on top of lies
So many tears shed from these eyes
The drops a sea
Of what we would never be...


EMOTIONAL...

From the silent treatment
To years of name calls
Making me always take the fall
Excuses
To his verbal contusion's
Lowered self esteem
Berating my dreams
Felt less then a woman
Just wanted to be loved...

PHYSICAL...

It started with a poke
I was a joke
Blood pours
On the mental scars of my
Already fragile heart
Pulling of my hair
Oh but he never did care
Who was there
Dragging me across rooms
Scars still show the burns
Love with no discern
Choking
Poking
Kicking
Punching
Threats of death
Wow that's what he did best...


SPIRITUAL...

I was not Godly
Was lower then him
Remembering how
He used Jesus against me
He told me
I was worse the Eve
I questioned my faith
He used his knowledge
To chastise
And criticize...

SEXUAL...

Molesting my heart body and soul
So cold
If the truth be told
Still hard to speak
On the acts he did to me
Cheating
Biting
Igniting my pain
Raping
Ravaging my body
Leaves a bloody taste in my mouth

Broken bones
Are now pitted with his ashes
So many a night I was at the
End of his lashing
For years draped
In a crimson sash
But soon learned to take my life back..
I NOW stand as much more
Then a survivor
I'm A thriver...

Taken from When Darkness Comes To Light available to buy on Amazon

Interlude

~Interlude~

As I soar to invisibility 

I dream of you 

Fly away with me 

Let's be free 

Let's soar like an eagle

Two hearts

One beat

Let's see

What no other can see

That love can conquer

The world

Let's live again

If only for one moment

Let time stand frozen

Trapped in each others arms

Away from harm

Draped in your embrace

Safe in your cape

My sweet escape

From life's woe

Today I'm not cold

Moist kisses

So delicious

As I whisper

I adore you

I implore you

To grab my hand

Let me save you

from your solitude

An interlude

To what's to come

Let's live

Laugh

And be in love

As doves begin to sing

A girl can always

Hold on to her dreams

The Call Of The Wild

I remain in a dream like state
Why can't every thing
just fade away
Falsmatic symphony's
Playing with my reality
Has it messing with my mentally
Psychotic tendencies
Dependent on psychedelic rhymes
Loosing faith
In the raindrops
Denied by the tears I cry
Composed by the call of the wild
Walls indented
No incentives
Take the pain away
And live free
Rejection
Mistaken identity
Diminished visions
By a blind mans captivity
Droughts taking the breath
Out of the land
Such anger at hand
Pedestals and thrones
Porcelain Gods
And bleeding clones
Stealing from the night
As I sit back and hear the cries
I sigh
The call of the wild
A unruly stepchild
Originality left for dead
Pumped with false knowledge
Death of a thousand lies
My Ink leaks
As this pen bleeds goodnight...

Pen'D Poem : August 25 - 31

Lynnett Fox

Mannequin

I thought I was fool proof

But the bullet hit and shattered

My heart

Stone cold

Faceless with no one to hold

A shell of my former flesh

Nothing left

As I try to break into me

I scream

Please

Still not being what

I'm supposed to be I dream

In abstract

A statue

Of virtue

A figurine

So serene

A doll

Who's likely to fall

Smaller then life

No one's wife

As my body produces

No more tears

Lost in the window pane

Mannequin

Life not happening

A puppet

For all to see

This is me

Plastic with a soul

No happily ever after doesn't exist

Or I wouldn't be stuck like this

Fairy tales

Are full of it

My strings

So easily pushed

A servant 

Subordinate to my position

An instrument of tradition A tool

Yet still no bodies fool...