Pen'D Poetry ♥️🖊: October 2012

Pen'D Poem October 21-28

You look at me with

Love in your eyes

Heart filled

With Venom

Because the scene

That just played

Out

I came at you like

A crazy lady

Because you just

Punch Me

Not even saying you

Are sorry

Fist flying all around

Heads bobbing and

Weaving

Dropping down to the

Ground

Getting up real quick

With a big ole stick

Swinging frantically

Protecting myself

From the onset of

Blows that you

Throw

What's Love Got To Do

With It

As the saying goes

Love don't suppose

To hurt

Leave you all

Bruised

Using all kinds of

Excuses

I did not mean to

Do it

You made me hit

You

But Honey you know

I love You!

As I look at you

With a swollen

Lip

A big black eye

Wondering

Why!

Am I Here

Why choose to

Stay

When I should get

Away

Promises that you

Would never do it

Again

But you really are

Not the better

Man

Gathering up all

My things

Racing for a

Safe place

Starting new as

You look thru

Posturing like

You help

Reality I did

What I needed to

Went were I needed

To be

Picked up all the

Pieces

Straighten out all

With Ease

Traveling around

Town

Telling my story

Helping Others

From around all

Corners of the

World

I am Stronger!

I am Older!

I am Wiser

Than before

Vowing to never let

Another man

Get me so

Low

Were does this

Type of

Abuse happens

Again

Listen! Listen!

Listen UP!

Abuse - Love = No

Good coming from

Know you are worth

So much more

Survivor of Abuse

Controller of my own

Pockets

Believer in myself

To be an Island

A force

To be reckoned

With

So in the end

Just recognize

This

Pen'D Poem October 14-20

God knows best

Sometimes lonely

nights can lend the

wrong advice...

Inducing thoughts

Of a better life with

visions of you having

a wife

I'll admit them cold

singled nights had

me missing my past

life...... Had me reaching

for everything thing, failed

attempts I grasped twice

Symptoms of loneliness

lust equipped with love's

might... So your desire for

erotic fights is poisoned by

loves bite

I know it all to

well been bit in

the ass twice, but

god lent clear to my

sight showing love

only appears when it's

right

He knew I wasn't ready

he was watching them

lonely nights... He knew

we'd bump heads not

a wife but she was shelved

At a similar price

saturated with the

freedom of one whos

engaged to a single

life but she feeds me

the love one would endure

from having a wife

She was exactly

what I ordered an

illusion of when the

time is right, god prescribed

her to me curing that desire

for bonded nights

And love.....

He made sure

falling was far from

sight, keeping my heart

tamed by the fact that she

is someone's wife

We even fight.....

Something else he

added to make this

"right" .... Constant

arguing reassuring

the love is ripe

Everything would

go left for a week

they wouldn't be

right but on that

8th day the make up

Was super nice

When im ready....

I know love won't

dare past me by...

I gave my heart away

before my body never

requested that great divide

Love has picky

eyes......

selfish ears she

ignores your cries....

But she has a

unique sense one

that's overseen by

he who claims our

sky's

So don't bother

asking why you

seem to be absent

her "Hi" or why every

time she trys its always

chased by a goodbye

Just know when

your ready she

will be stationed

by your side... God

has funny ways of

training our anxious

eyes

God knows best

Pen'D Poem September 9-16

I have doubts

Sometime before today

I guided love away from

me....

A fool towards what

was true intoxicated by

immaturity

how come nobody

mentioned to me

that them shackles

weren't cheap... I'm

paying for what I've

lost when it was giving

to me for free

I'm hurting for what

I've done most can't

afford that golden key...

It's treasure deep in

in my chest directing

blood to places it needs

to be.....

I kept from thought

the quality of those

who roamed free, now

I'm infected with this

cancer you may know

her as lonely

she's mean...

Feeding off your

desire to feel needed,

so every single encounter

she portrays love as the

source of why you were

greeted

vulnerable your mind

Is throughout this diseased

time.... Disrupting your gift

of vision lonely convinces you

your blind

Forced to only see

what she wants to be

seen.... One night stands

scripted as fulfilled love

dreams you see your read

is disrupted hit by the

stare of the suns beam so

you fall for anything them

obvious cracks are hardly

seen

Attempting daily to get

back the entire route your

suffering because reality

is taunting " you forced real

to leave the scene"!!

I have doubts....

due to this horrid

society.... Women

using their gift given

to create for conning

men into enhancing

their lives financially

Men abusing the beauty

of "her" exaggerated

emotion stream to feed

their overwhelming

greed sexually

It's a never ending cycle

that makes this love shit

hard for me.... I'm not into

the casual games they were

forced onto me

I gambled and rolled

the dice now love runs

when I speak... Not chasing

my prior one I just need love

to forgive me and respect my

speech, but I doubt shell stop

to listen she quickly evades me

when I reach

I have doubts

Love's Image

You said you love me, but you can’t be mine
There's no other love you will ever find
The special kind of love that pulls so deep
Hear my thoughts and these words that I speak

The Love you share with her lasted for so long
Tried to convince myself that what I feel is wrong
Each and every day what I feel grows strong
In our worlds is where we both belong.

Must I move on or keep hope alive?
Or hold back from limitations that are so contrived?
What about me is not what you need?
I am more than what you refuse to see

What does it take to get you to Believe
There's no Greater Love 
Than what you can have with me

We share the same Likeness
Similarities and All
Together we would enjoy each other
And have a ball

Convinced that she is your one and only?
Convinced you are my one and only.

Spell-bound and entranced by Love slowly
Grows deeper and more passionate over time.

Love-sick by cupid's arrow hit all at once
Will it take longer for his power to spell-bind you?
Until you realize that my words and actions are true?

Love Adorn. Your Love Adorn. Let Mine Adorn You...
Cupid's cherubian nature has given me Love's entrancing Flu

Your eyes will open with clear vision brand new
One day
Just one...
Is all that needs to be for you to see
Perhaps not today or tomorrow -not even a week

But one day hopefully before we're past our prime
To live in youth's illustrous free spirit is our time

That's the time I want to share before our youth is over
Pulling each petal from my own personal 4 leaf clover
One last hope, one more pull, that love surrounds your mind
The Love I can express to you is One of a Kind

The closest connection to his Holiness, Love-making Divine
Touching your skin, lips, and face would feel so sublime

More than a second, minute, or a whole day
Forever by your side I will always stay

Is it hard to understand how I can feel so sure?
It's hard to explain this certain love's allure

It didn't come at once but rather suddenly
After connecting heart to heart from noticing
What was in front of me

You truly are my missing other half
The same that completes him 
Who holds his rod and staff

I look at you and see myself in your eyes
Intelligence, wit, charm, and humor
You genuinely comprise

If you stepped into my soul 
You would feel your soul
I find peace in knowing 
Your soul can console

Love you like a brother, treat you like a friend
All aspects of love that are easy to comprehend

If the colors of the rainbow represented us
We would easily blend 
Matching the Brightness and Boldness
The colors never end

Soaring through the day sky after a special rain
Continuing through the galaxy leaving a colorful stain

Between you and I anything can be done
I refuse to be broken down, turn away, or to run

What I feel is real and I can't turn back now
Give me and this love a chance and I will show you how

There's nothing to be afraid of
Nothing to fear

I'm usually ruled by it but not this time
Now willing to take the next step for you to be mine

It's all in your hands where we go to from here
Needing your touch and caress erases all of my fears

I know you're in love and it's not with me
A little more time must pass for a possibility

If you end up continuing further with your current love
Just remember this passage is from a heart filled with love

Wishing you all the best with your life together
Bright days, beautiful future, and less stormy weather

Apprehensive and saddened by what events may bring
But I'll always be happy, joyful, and loved every time you sing

In my heart and mind you will always be my true love
Whether you're in my arms or hers it's only because
Now was not our time and there's a path for us all
Love is Grand and Big without ignoring the Little and Small.

I'll Love you Always.