Pen'D Poem October 21-28


You look at me with

Love in your eyes

Heart filled

With Venom

Because the scene

That just played

Out


I came at you like

A crazy lady

Because you just

Punch Me

Not even saying you

Are sorry


Fist flying all around

Heads bobbing and

Weaving

Dropping down to the

Ground


Getting up real quick

With a big ole stick

Swinging frantically

Protecting myself

From the onset of

Blows that you

Throw


What's Love Got To Do

With It

As the saying goes

 Love don't suppose

To hurt

Leave you all

Bruised

Using all kinds of

Excuses


I did not mean to

Do it

You made me hit

You

But Honey you know

I love You!


As I look at you

With a swollen

Lip

A big black eye

Wondering

Why!

Am I Here


Why choose to

Stay

When I should get

Away


Promises that you

Would never do it

Again


But you really are

Not the better

Man


Gathering up all

My things

Racing for a

Safe place


Starting new as

You look thru

Posturing like

You help

Me


Reality I did

What I needed to

do

Went were I needed

To be


Picked up all the

Pieces

Straighten out all

With Ease


 Traveling around

Town

Telling my story

Helping Others

From around all

Corners of the

World


I am Stronger!

I am Older!

I am Wiser

Than before


Vowing to never let

Another man

Get me so

Low

Were does this

Type of

Abuse happens

Again


Listen! Listen!

Listen UP!

Abuse - Love = No

Good coming from

It

Know you are worth

So much more


Survivor of Abuse

Controller of my own

Pockets

Believer in myself


To be an Island

A force

To be reckoned

With

So in the end

Just recognize

This

 © 2012 Cindy Smith-Jordan 4-27-12



Pen'D Poem October 14-20

God knows best 



Sometimes lonely 



nights can lend the 



wrong advice... 




Inducing thoughts 




Of a better life with 



visions of you having 



a wife



I'll admit them cold 



singled nights had



me missing my past




life...... Had me reaching




for everything thing, failed 



attempts I grasped twice



Symptoms of loneliness



lust equipped with love's


might... So your desire for

erotic fights is poisoned by

loves bite


I know it all to

well been bit in

the ass twice, but

god lent clear to my

sight showing love

only appears when it's

right


He knew I wasn't ready

he was watching them

lonely nights... He knew

we'd bump heads not

a wife but she was shelved

At a similar price



saturated with the

freedom of one whos

engaged to a single

life but she feeds me

the love one would endure

from having a wife



She was exactly

what I ordered an

illusion of when the

time is right, god prescribed

her to me curing that desire

for bonded nights



And love.....



He made sure

falling was far from

sight, keeping my heart

tamed by the fact that she

is someone's wife



We even fight.....



Something else he

added to make this

"right" .... Constant

arguing reassuring

the love is ripe



Everything would

go left for a week

they wouldn't be

right but on that

8th day the make up

Was super nice



When im ready....



I know love won't

dare past me by...

I gave my heart away

before my body never

requested that great divide



Love has picky

eyes......

selfish ears she

ignores your cries....



But she has a

unique sense one

that's overseen by

he who claims our

sky's


So don't bother

asking why you

seem to be absent

her "Hi" or why every

time she trys its always

chased by a goodbye


Just know when

your ready she

will be stationed

by your side... God

has funny ways of

training our anxious

eyes

God knows best 


(c) 2012 viewtifulink








Pen'D Poem September 9-16


I have doubts 


Sometime before today


I guided love away from 

me.... 


A fool towards what

was true intoxicated by

immaturity

how come nobody

mentioned to me


that them shackles

weren't cheap... I'm

paying for what I've

lost when it was giving

to me for free



I'm hurting for what


I've done most can't


afford that golden key...


It's treasure deep in


in my chest directing


blood to places it needs


to be.....




I kept from thought


the quality of those


who roamed free, now


I'm infected with this


cancer you may know


her as lonely



she's mean...



Feeding off your


desire to feel needed,


so every single encounter


she portrays love as the


source of why you were


greeted



vulnerable your mind


Is throughout this diseased


time.... Disrupting your gift


of vision lonely convinces you


your blind



Forced to only see


what she wants to be


seen.... One night stands


scripted as fulfilled love


dreams you see your read


is disrupted hit by the


stare of the suns beam so


you fall for anything them


obvious cracks are hardly


seen



Attempting daily to get


back the entire route your


suffering because reality


is taunting " you forced real


to leave the scene"!!



I have doubts....



due to this horrid


society.... Women


using their gift given


to create for conning


men into enhancing


their lives financially



Men abusing the beauty


of "her" exaggerated


emotion stream to feed


their overwhelming


greed sexually



It's a never ending cycle


that makes this love shit


hard for me.... I'm not into


the casual games they were


forced onto me



I gambled and rolled


the dice now love runs


when I speak... Not chasing


my prior one I just need love


to forgive me and respect my


speech, but I doubt shell stop


to listen she quickly evades me


when I reach


I have doubts

(c) 2012 viewtifulink



Love's Image


Love's Image
You said you love me, but you can’t be mine
There's no other love you will ever find
The special kind of love that pulls so deep
Hear my thoughts and these words that I speak
The Love you share with her lasted for so long
Tried to convince myself that what I feel is wrong
Each and every day what I feel grows strong
In our worlds is where we both belong.
Must I move on or keep hope alive?
Or hold back from limitations that are so contrived?
What about me is not what you need?
I am more than what you refuse to see
What does it take to get you to Believe
There's no Greater Love
Than what you can have with me
We share the same Likeness
Similarities and All
Together we would enjoy each other
And have a ball
Convinced that she is your one and only?
Convinced you are my one and only.
Spell-bound and entranced by Love slowly
Grows deeper and more passionate over time.
Love-sick by cupid's arrow hit all at once
Will it take longer for his power to spell-bind you?
Until you realize that my words and actions are true?
Love Adorn. Your Love Adorn. Let Mine Adorn You...
Cupid's cherubian nature has given me Love's entrancing Flu
Your eyes will open with clear vision brand new
One day
Just one...
Is all that needs to be for you to see
Perhaps not today or tomorrow -not even a week
But one day hopefully before we're past our prime
To live in youth's illustrous free spirit is our time
That's the time I want to share before our youth is over
Pulling each petal from my own personal 4 leaf clover
One last hope, one more pull, that love surrounds your mind
The Love I can express to you is One of a Kind
The closest connection to his Holiness, Love-making Divine
Touching your skin, lips, and face would feel so sublime
More than a second, minute, or a whole day
Forever by your side I will always stay
Is it hard to understand how I can feel so sure?
It's hard to explain this certain love's allure
It didn't come at once but rather suddenly
After connecting heart to heart from noticing
What was in front of me
You truly are my missing other half
The same that completes him
Who holds his rod and staff
I look at you and see myself in your eyes
Intelligence, wit, charm, and humor
You genuinely comprise
If you stepped into my soul
You would feel your soul
I find peace in knowing
Your soul can console
Love you like a brother, treat you like a friend
All aspects of love that are easy to comprehend
If the colors of the rainbow represented us
We would easily blend
Matching the Brightness and Boldness
The colors never end
Soaring through the day sky after a special rain
Continuing through the galaxy leaving a colorful stain
Between you and I anything can be done
I refuse to be broken down, turn away, or to run
What I feel is real and I can't turn back now
Give me and this love a chance and I will show you how
There's nothing to be afraid of
Nothing to fear
I'm usually ruled by it but not this time
Now willing to take the next step for you to be mine
It's all in your hands where we go to from here
Needing your touch and caress erases all of my fears
I know you're in love and it's not with me
A little more time must pass for a possibility
If you end up continuing further with your current love
Just remember this passage is from a heart filled with love
Wishing you all the best with your life together
Bright days, beautiful future, and less stormy weather
Apprehensive and saddened by what events may bring
But I'll always be happy, joyful, and loved every time you sing
In my heart and mind you will always be my true love
Whether you're in my arms or hers it's only because
Now was not our time and there's a path for us all
Love is Grand and Big without ignoring the Little and Small.

I'll Love you Always.